American Idol

And tonight, we've seen the last of American Idol Season 5. It has been a fun watch, since february; hurrying to come home from the office just to come home in time for the show.

siiiighhh....I wonder if I'd ever get to see Chris Daughtry again..much less Gideon!hahaha!

Mandisa and Paris has such raw talent and such performers they are that I can't help but envy them; making me wish I am as well a performer as they are..hehehe...

Though my "manok" didnt get it to the final two, I still am happy this evening 'cause I got to see Chris again and, and...Taylor and Katharine sang "Time of my Life"...one of my all-time favorite since I was a kid.

siiiighhh...I wish there'd come a time I'd get to sing that song with "The One"... (erm..term borrowed from Sakura..hehe)

ZZzzz...

It was such a ho-hum afternoon.

So boring I could almost hear a fly buzzing around.

Yeah, it feels like one of those la-zy vacation afternoons back home when you lay sprawled on a chair staring out at the intense heat, looking up at a clear blue sky and feeling the breeze as it likewise caress the flora in our frontyard.The fresh breeze around a place so serene and peaceful, lolling me to sleep....

Only, the smell around here is no way near fresh and instead of the soft murmur of the wind, you could hear hardworking colleagues (how do they do that?) intent on their discussions, telephone conversations and hard coughs every now and then.

Despite and inspite all these though, they are as potent as that breeze that lolls me to sleep...

As I have Done For You

God really knows how to reach you when you need Him the most.

Didache readings the past few days seemed like they were meant and written for me.

Earlier, as I sat on the pew, it was as if Someone was prodding me to just go and pick up the Hymnal book in front of me. Opening it in random, I gently laid my hand on the hymnal. As I dont know the song, I just read Dan Schutte's As I have Done For You, goose bumps making my skin rough. Again, it was one of those moments that you feel like He has talked to you...

I did feel refreshed after that.

Getting On...

Still groping for my long-lost appetite, I forced myself to eat lunch. Ordered chef's tuna at Coffee Bean, which was malansa by the way, and enjoyed a white-chocolate latte (which made me felt like gagging) for almost two hours while reading my latest craze - A Wheel of Time book.

Thinking that I may be a bit overstaying already, I headed out to the mall's library and started going about with my mission. I planned to go library hopping and search for WoT's Book 3 as im halfway finished with Book 2 already. While riding to and fro in the train, I was so glued to the book that more than once, I found myself gasping when I realize i've already arrived on the station i've been meaning to go or when I realize, I was already two stations away from my intended stop. Haha, talk about presence of mind. ;)

And Oooohhhh, I just loooove the libraries here in Singapore. In almost every station here, a library can be easily seen; with community libraries situated right within malls or the regional libraries set apart in another building, often than not, several storeys high. Oh, think about the books those buildings hold...Looking at the collection, I always think of these libraries as a cornucopia. Some library buildings are so sossy, they have fountains inside, a Cafe (most often than not, Cafe Galilee) and a music lounge where you can get to privately enjoy a selection of music through a panel of buttons right beside your oh-so-comfy chair while enjoying a good book.

On my second library stop, which was a regional one, there was an exhibit on the ground floor. There, I oohhhed and ahhhed with the little kids guided by their parents; I care not if i'm a bit too old for the crowd..hehe.. There was this "Seeing Colors" panel where three discs were mounted on the wall. On the discs were just patterns of black and white but then when you get the discs to rotating by pushing the start button, you get see red, brown, green and blue on the discs. I giggled as I identified the colors on the discs...Hehe, yeah, so easy to please, am I? But then again, it's rare to have the Little Marj with me again.. My favorite though was the "Frozen shadow" exhibit wherein you put your hand on a phosphorescent surface inside a triangular niche. Facing you, is a digital counter and at the count of 5, a camera-like flash goes and lifting your hand, you can see an imprint of your hand on the phosphorescent surface that looks like your shadow. Weee!! I got so ecstatic with it, I tried it several times; never minding the little ones trying to peep around me and waiting for their turn..hehehe..

So, from one library to another I hopped on...but..sniff..I couldnt find my Book 3 as it was out...Well, I can actually see from the On-line catalogue if my book was out on loan , but I just kind of liked the idea of library-hopping.hehehe..

Not intending to go home empty-handed, I bought instead two of my favorite stuffs before I hopped myself back home...

Can Somebody Sing This for Me?...

Rainbow

Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothings sure in this world, no no
Breaking down, breaking in
Never knowing what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all, no no

Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we could never understand
Why some things begin with just love
We can never have it all
No no no ohh

But oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
And so baby just smile
Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see
How beautiful life is
For you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterfly's colors
Listen to the birds
That were sent to sing
For me and you
Can you feel me?
This is such a wonderful place to me

Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me?
There's a rainbow always
After the rain

Hittin' high, hittin' low
Win or lose, you should go Yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather can be so good or bad
But baby, this is life so don't get mad No no no
Cause ohhh
Can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
And so, baby, please smile
Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see
How beautiful life is
For you and me

Take a little time, baby
See the butterfly's colors
Listen to the birds
That were sent to sing
For me and you
Can you feel me?
This is such a wonderful place to me

Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me ?
There's a rainbow always
After the rain

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time
We get what we want
But don't despair, my dear
You'll take it each trial
And you'll make it through the storm
Cause youre strong
My faith in you is clear
So I say once again
This world's beautiful
Let us celebrate life
That is so beautiful
So beautiful...

Take a little time, baby
See the butterfly's colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me?
This is such a wonderful place to me
Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me?
There's a rainbow always
After the rain

Addicted again...

The Pilgrim's Theme

Tired of weaving dreams
too loose for me to wear
Tired of watching clouds
repeat their dance on air

Tired of getting tired
of doing what's required
Is life a mere routine
in the greater scheme of things

Through with taking roads
someone else designed
Through with chasing stars
that soon forget to shine
Through with going through
one more day - what's new
Does my life still mean a thing
in the greater scheme of things

REFRAIN 1:
I think I'll follow
the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
I hope to find my place
So my life can fall in place
I know in time
I'll find my place
In the greater scheme of things

Each must go his way,
but how can I decide
Which path I should take,
who will be my guide

I need some kind of star
to lead me somewhere far
To find a higher dream
in the greater scheme of things

The road before me bends,
I don't know what I'll find
Will I meet a friend or ghosts
I left behind

Should I even be surprised
that You're with me in disguise
For it's Your hand I have seen
in the greater scheme of things

(REFRAIN 1)

BRIDGE:
For Yours is the voice
in my deepest dreams
You are the heart,
the very heart
Of the greater scheme of things

(REFRAIN 1)

REFRAIN 2:
Why don't we follow
the voice that calls within
Dance to the silent song it sings
One day we'll find our place
For all things fall in place
For all things have a place
In the greater scheme of things

The Alchemist

True enough,
when you want something soo badly,
the whole world conspires with you.

Been having trouble sleeping lately...
and whaddyaknow!
after not having tuned in for a week,
tonight's topic in Class 95
are tips on getting
that "forty winks" in a snap.

The first one i got
right after tuning in
was to sniff a scent.
Says Yaz, you put
lavender oil droplets
in your pillowcase
and that'll do the trick.
Hmmm..gotta go to Bukit Batok then.

Addicted...

...that's how i am with the Wheel of Time.
I've been scrimping for every spare time
i can get and i read even when im standing
in the platform waiting for the train.

Every morning,
when i groggily pick my way to the bathroom,
i vow to myself to sleep early that evening.
The following evening, however,
finds me glued to my laptop and afterwhich,
finds me engrossed with reading WoT.
And it'll be way past midnight when sleep
finally catches up on me.
Not that this is new to me.
Been vowing to myself to sleep early
but finding later i've broken my vow
ever since Paige and I became roommates..
hahaha..

Anyways, grab yourself a copy of the book.
I guarantee it's more than worth the read,
and i believe all WoT fanatics
would readily agree with me.

And Eponine was Loved...

...when all this time, i thought
she loved on her own.
(I can bet though that the book says
she did love on her own)

This scene's really touching though...

From Les Miserables...

EPONINE
Don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
You're here, that's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
And rain will make the flowers grow.

MARIUS
But you will live, 'Ponine - dear God above,
If I could heal your wounds with words of love.

EPONINE
Just hold me now, and let it be.
Shelter me, comfort me

MARIUS
You would live a hundred years
If I could show you how
I won't desert you now...

EPONINE
The rain can't hurt me now
This rain will wash away what's past
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close
I'll sleep in your embrace at last.
The rain that brings you here
Is Heaven-blessed!
The skies begin to clear
And I'm at rest
A breath away from where you are
I've come home from so far
So don't you fret, M'sieur Marius
I don't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt me now
That's all I need to know
And you will keep me safe
And you will keep me close

MARIUS(in counterpoint)
Hush-a-bye, dear Eponine,
You won't feel any pain
A little fall of rain
Can hardly hurt you now
I'm here
I will stay with you
Till you are sleeping

EPONINE
And rain...

MARIUS
And rain...

EPONINE
Will make the flowers...

MARIUS
Will make the flowers... grow...

(She dies. Marius kisses her, then lays her on the ground)

MARIUS
Her name was Eponine
Her life was cold and dark,
yet she was unafraid.

April Fools on Class 95

Happy April Fools Day!
hmmmm.. i wonder what prank can
i pull today...hehe..

Anyways, i've been listening to this
radio station since November.
Aside from having a cool selection,
what keeps me interested in
listening to Class 95 is Yaz'
"Topic for the Night".

Got to learn a lot of useful
tidbits of infos..

Anyways, as their treat for
April Fools' Day,
Yaz kept on promising earlier
in the night that at the stroke
of midnight, she'll be playing
a song that'll melt the heart,
unless you've got a heart of stone.

well, wait i did so as to test if
i already have a heart of stone.

before playing the song,
she promoted that "wing"
has sold some 20,000 albums already
and that for tonight, she'll be
playing "wing's" own rendition
of Mariah Carey's Vision of Love.

And wait I did.

I was not prepared though
with what assailed my sense of hearing.

It sounded like an 80-year old grandma
trying to belt it out.
I was wincing actually and was near crying
with exasperation...
but listen i did till the end...
cause, (ok, i gotta give it to her)
it was REALLY funny...

but oh pleea-uh-se..
let it not be an LSS again..

Got a new baby!

Got my very own gorgeous baby!
A Dell Inspiron Centrino Duo..
a reea-uh-lly nice sight..=)

Would have liked for it to be all white
but I like it as it is...:)

will try to post it's portrait later..;)

Kevin of AI

Ever since Gideon was eliminated,
i've been ranting and griping
on the fact that Kevin was able
to stay in the contest.

Whenever AI was the topic,
I have always been expressive
on my opinions with Kevin,
letting everyone know just
what I think of him and
his "over-staying" in AI.

When he sang "when i fall in love"
last wednesday
(we have a 12-hr delayed telecast)
I have been complaining
on the way he sang it.
He was close to belting it out
and I didnt feel like "falling in love"
which you ought to
when you hear the song.

Come eliminations night however,
and as he got eliminated,
I didnt feel as elated
as I thought I would be.
Perhaps it was the mood I was in.

And, when he sang the first note,
my nose started twitching
and I couldnt stop my eyes
from watering nor
can I control tears
from overflowing thereafter.

Maybe it was because
of the way he sang it.
Or maybe,
the song just hit home.

Maid of Honor

Erlita's wedding's been moved to July,
a month short of my homeleave.
too bad....

Anyways, her entourage is quite unique.
She wont be having a Maid of Honor.
This is despite the fact that she has a sister,
her one and only sibling.
She wouldn't be having one coz,
as she says,
there can only be one Maid of Honor.

Me.

Hehehe..
Sorry I can't be there but then,
Thanks Let!
=)

Opposites Attract?

whenever i get to thinking about it,
it always amazes me how ALL
my close friends are so
practical-minded and level-headed
while im, well, the complete,
exact emotional opposite.
Not that i'm complaining.
It gives me the balance I need, really.

Little Tidbits

Im now reading an epic novel and it seems quite interesting,
although there are still a lot of stuff i dont know
as it is a sequel im reading.

This isnt the magical fantasy book ive been reading earlier.
Ive ditched that one already as the heroine was infuriating.
(don't ask me about it).

Anyways, the epic novel im reading tells of beautiful, ageless-faced Aes Sedai.
And that to become a full pledged Aes Sedai,
they must be able to control their emotions and what they feel,
inward and outward. Through the training they have,
they can psyche themselves to not feel the wintry cold,
to show grace under pressure and to not fall in love...
Interesting ne?

I have also learned of the ko'di which one of the famous warriors have been using.
From what i gather, it's like super-advanced yoga (if there ever is one).
With ko'di, you can envelope yourself in its "force field"
and thereby cut yourself from extreme cold and from other prowerful feelings like
anger. As was said, going to battle when angry is ultimate foolishness
as it makes one go rash with decisions and thereby is tantamount to
digging your own grave.

I'm just on the 32nd page actually (hehe) but ive been learning a lot,
even chancing upon really meaningful food-for-thoughts
(im weird alright..finding lines to internalize when im just reading an epic..hehe)