Dead tired

For the first time since i got assigned here in Singapore, I got out of the office at 9 pm, slightly swaying from hunger pangs and from a groggy head that's overstuffed with Heat exchangers...

Project people had been pressuring me that i need to submit my pumps, vessels and filters at the end of this week. But how can i move on, when there're these wretched H/Es that keeps bugging me and keeping me from going ahead with the other deliverables. And just when i thought everything is ok, this handsome-but-irritating-jap-so-it's-just-as-well-he's-married-already (hmmm..i can be a mistress i think..hehe) came up and said he'd like for this other H/E to be in batch operation also which means i will yet again make a series of rating the H/E with all the different LMTDs at certain periods of time...huwahhhhh..what a headache........

Jin...i need you back..i need you here beside me..please come back...i need you back..let's start all over again....whew..good thing my kp's gonna be back in the office by monday..but then, i have to submit all the datasheets this friday...huhuhu..

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I hate H/Es!
I hate H/Es!
I hate H/Es!
I hate H/Es!
I hate H/Es!
I hate H/Es!

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see how drained i am...
i can't even make up a decent artic.
huff.....

Dreams dreams dreams

I so wonder why do people dream while sleeping...

could it be because of their hyperactive minds?
could it be because of subconscious thoughts that they try to stiffle down?
could it be because they were thinking of certain individuals?
could it be because that certain individual is thinking of them?
(bwahahaha...now the last one's quite assuming).

I usually don't bother myself what dreams i had.
(well, except for those troublesome ones like those nightmares)
But when they have a certain consistency already,
it does get to be kindy creepy...

4th Anniversary

Whoa!

Last January 28, our batch (Batch 14) had our 4th anniversary of working in our present company. Whew! Time really does fly so fast with a lot of happenings in betweens.....

Hmmmm..i wonder though if i will see the 5th anniversary....hoooh..i get the shivers...

My Takashi...

OMAYGAWD!!!!
I think im in love!
He's so funny, so sexy, so charming.......
Just discovered that My Takashi himself composed this song (GTO theme song).......
This definitely is a really really nice song....

Poison; Geat Teacher Onizuka) Opening(Drama Version)
Sung by: Sorimachi Takashi
Lyrics: Sorimachi Takashi

itsu made mo shinjite-itai
saigo made omoi-tsudzuketai
jibun wa ikiru imi ga aru hazu to
Always, I want to keep believing...
Until the very end, I want to keep thinking...
that there has to be some meaning to my life.
sameta me de waraikakete'ru
tamashii wo okasareta yatsu
namida wo nagasu itami wa aru no kai?
Smiling with a cold glare
Do guys who have had their very soul violated
really feel the pain of shedding tears?
iitai koto mo ienai konna yo no naka ja
Poison
ore wa ore wo damasu koto naku ikite-yuku
Oh Oh
In this kind of world where you can't say what you want,
Poison
I'll go on with my life, still being true to myself.
Oh Oh
massugu mukiau ima ni
hokori wo motsu tame ni
tatakau koto mo hitsuyou na no sa
In this moment we face it head-on,
we have to fight
in order to keep our pride.
kaidan ni suwarikonde
owaranai yume no hanashi wo
yo ga akeru made katari-tsudzuketa
Sitting on the stairs,
we went on talking of unending dreams
until the break of dawn.
sarigenaku kisetsu wa kawari
muishiki ni shisen wo otoshi
nagasareru koto ni narete-yuku no ka
The seasons change casually
I unconsciously drop my eyes
Am I really getting used to being swept along?
chiisa na yume mo mirenai konna yo no naka ja
Poison
jibun rashisa zutto itsudemo suki de itai
Oh Oh
In this kind of world where you can't have even small dreams,
Poison
I want to always, always be able to like being who I am.
Oh Oh
jiyuu ni ikite'ku hibi wo
taisetsu ni shitai kara
ikitai michi wo ima arukidasu
I want to cherish
each day I can live freely, so
I'll walk whatever path I want.
kitanai uso ya kotoba de ayatsuraretakunai
Poison
sunao na kimochi kara me wo sorashitakunai
I don't want to be manipulated by filthy lies and words.
Poison
I don't want to turn away from my true feelings.
iitai koto mo ienai konna yo no naka ja
Poison
ore wa ore wo damasu koto naku ikite-yuku
Oh Oh
In this kind of world where you can't say what you want,
Poison
I'll go on with my life, being true to myself.
Oh Oh
massugu mukiau ima ni
hokori wo motsu tame ni
tatakau koto mo hitsuyou na no sa
In this moment we face it head-on,
we have to fight
in order to keep our pride.

Charm

Went over to Charm's place for lunch.
Though I was with her for just 3 hours, I was refreshed with my visit as I had a great time watching her prepare our lunch while I sang and entertained her (yep, I didnt even lift a single finger whilst she busied herself).
I don't know why I enjoy watching people work while I try to entertain them.
It must be the satisfaction and happiness it brings me when I see them laugh while doing their chores, to keep them entertained as in the process I am likewise entertained.

No Worries

How i soooo love this song ever since i've heard it early December of last year...
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I just know your life's gonna change
Gonna get a little better
Even on the darkest day
I just know your life's gonna change
Gonna get a little further
Right until the feelings change

So, is this how it goes?
Think you've come this far with nothing to show
That ain't so, no
You don't see where you are
And if you don't look back you know you'll never know

Cause you think that you've been living, just treading water
And waiting in the wings for the show to begin
But I always see you searching
As you try that bit harder
Getting closer, oh yeah, to the life you're imagining

[chorus]
(I just know your life's gonna change)
Maybe not today, maybe not today
Some day soon you'll be all right
(I just know your life's gonna change)
Don't turn the other way, turn the other way
Feels like luck is on your side
(Just wanna live)
No worries, no worries
(Don't wanna die)
No worries, no worries
(Fight thought the lows)
Say it for me, say it for me,
(And take all the highs)
We all need somebody
(Yeah we can sink)
No worries, no worries
(Or can you swim)
No worries, no worries
(Or walk on out)
Say it for me, say it for me,
(Or jump right in)
We all need somebody

So, baby keep drifting on
Your endeavours ain't just selfless wasted time
Seek and find, yeah yeah
You're not that far from what you've hoped and wished for all along
Cause you think that you've been living, just treading water
And waiting in the wings for the show to begin
But I always see you searching
As you try that bit harder
Getting closer, oh yeah, to the life you're imagining

[chorus]

I just know your life's gonna change
Say it for me, say it for me
We all need somebody

The Hundredth Mark

Sometimes, things and situations seem to push and pull you all at the same time and you just dont know what to believe or what to do anymore.

It is ironic to think that tight situations dont come to you one at a time but that they go stampeding at you all at once.

I kept thinking of how Kun Lun managed to survive the bull stampede...I think i'll do just that.

Anyways, this blog marks the hundredth of my posts.
And with this is a wish that the next hundreds will reveal a life well lived and loved.

Recollections

when you tend to get to meet again people you met in the past,
when you get to see things that held meaning some time ago,
when you get to hear songs you held dear in days long gone by,
you just cant help but sing Celine Dion's:
"It's all coming back to me now".............

An Adult Now

This will be my first christmas away from home and it sure is taking all my willpower not to let those damned tears fall...
As we shopped yesterday for our Noche Buena, I suddenly realized that for the first time during Christmas, i acted like a responsible adult-in-charge. Usually when at home, i was just the humble assistant of mama and papa, or just lounge around waiting for the food to be cooked...hehehe..but now, i get to do the cooking...talk about "bilog ang mundo"..
hehe..
Well, i just wish this Christmas/saturday wont be as full of drama as i dread it to be...

A Knack for Dates

a have this knack for remembering dates.
like something would happen today
and lo, after a year or so, i'd still remember exactly what happened or
i would remind people what that certain day was.

or, i may be in the middle of workand i just suddenly pause
as there is this nagging feeling that something happened
on that certain day sometime ago
or somebody is celebrating their birthday that very day.

i also easily remember birthdays..
even birthdays of close friends back in elementary whom i havent had any contact since.

and of course, i remember special events with once-special people
although they might not be playing important roles in my life at the moment.

this makes me think yet again that once people make a significant role in your life,
they would always be remembered and memories with them would always be cherished although they dont have the same effect to you as they had once.

and on that day, when years ago, they had made an impact in your life,
you stop and wonder how they may be, where they may be.
and if things have been different what would have happened.
sometimes when you look back, there may be some regrets
but it is best to look back with acceptance and thankfulness with what one
has of the present and with happiness that you've lived through your life, living it the most that you can.

uhm, er, i think my thoughts/POV now is somewhat unorganized and"scattered".hehe..honestly i dont know where im getting at...hehe

Anyways, i just remembered that today is Manny's birthday.
I wonder where that small guy is now...hehe..(look who's talking).

A lovely day

it is such a lovely day to reconstruct bridges.......
^O^

albeit there was a whisper about burning other bridges....

The Promise

Breathtaking. Enchanting. Beautiful.
I. Just. Love. It.!!

Watched it alone but I immensely enjoyed it.
Critics may not like it.
My taste may be eccentric but I just love it!

I wonder how my favorite fairy tale "Jade Goddess"
would be like in the movies...
Yeah, i know i may be eccentric as no body i know has read this fairy tale...hehehe

on mistakes

if u've done one minute wrong in the past,
must u suffer its hard consequences for the rest of ur life?
cant u do anything to rectify that mundane mistake
so as to detach urself from the monumental monster that's grappling u?

on being a believer

perhaps, being a believer of something,
u need not see the tangible part of ur belief
for u to be able to believe in it...
to have faith in it...

and that perhaps, that tangible part of ur belief
is only shown to those unbelievers
so that in turn, they would come to believe that that something does exist

but if it takes to be a non believer to that something in order to be happy,
then i would rather be a non believer...

but how can i be when my whole life i have been a believer
and was even notoriously famous for it?